Tag: personal

I’m not a crier. But I think I’ve gotten teary more in the past four months than in most of the rest of my life.

But tonight I’m just kind of numb. That’s the worst sort of feeling. The “I should cry and process this, but I can’t even manage that much” feeling.

I’m sick and I’m still spending the whole day watching physics videos in an attempt to catch up after I missed class twice (once today, cause sick, and once Wednesday, because the class before took too much time). I literally don’t think my body can keep up with the amount of stress and classwork I have.

Hanging with straight friends is always the most bizarre experience, like yes, I suppose those two actors definitely look different… this is Patrick Grant, right?

News: I can’t tell Hugh Grant and Patrick Dempsey apart.

The other thing about hating literally everything sex does in society is that occasionally when your body gets aroused in that completely out-of-the-blue way bodies have a habit of doing sometimes, you just… loathe yourself because how dare your very own body insist on treating you this way

Like I asked my spouse for a new vibrator but it’s not because I’m excited, it’s cause I want the whole process to end sooner and be done with it

Edit: By ‘the whole process’ I mean self-pleasure because my spouse doesn’t ever rape me ever, just clarifying, because I realised some people might think I was talking about sex with him